Ok, one of the myths associated with be, and one of my belief shattered. Well, this is not the first time this happened, it happened once before also, but that was about 5 years back, and since then, coz most things turned out the way I wanted them to be, that myth reinstalled itself in me. And it is that I can get any damn thing I set my mind too. And this time I lost that one dream that I had seen and nurtured since, since I don't even remember since when. I did not get recommended for Air force SSB.
I have 2-3 big defeats and failures to my credit. The second one after this is my failure to qualify in IIT. I think that I really begin to loose focus towards the end of the journey, I become casual, and when the time was there to put that extra effort, I wasted it.
Its like that quote " On the plains of hesitation lie the blackened bones of countless millions who, at the dawn of victory, sat down to rest... and resting, died." (googled up for the exact thing).
Oh, and there is another, I always fail in love, i failed every time i tried before, and now this one, of which i was sure that its meant to be, is also going. I am giving last big fight for it, to save it, to not fail this time.
